Panic Attacks & Marriage Problems

It’s all connected.

Know when my panic attacks started?  When my marriage took a nosedive.

I have been fighting back and doing better.  I’ve made awesome progress.

My marriage improved also this past year.

Now my husband is driving me nuts again and I feel so jittery today – like I’m going to jump out of my skin.

Am I saying he causes my panic attacks?

No.  Although it’d be great to be able to blame him, I can’t.  Our marriage problems definitely contributed to my anxiety though, I guarantee that!

I believe the way I deal with my marriage problems is what puts me over the edge.  Apparently I had reached my limit 5 years ago when this all started.

I am a relationship person.  My life is about people, relationships.    Husband, kids, sisters, friends, etc.  I know for many people their life focus is their job, or money, or a religious mission, or the white picket fence.  My focus is and always was – people.

I care way too much what other people think of me.  I always have.  I take it to heart when someone is mad at me, or someone just doesn’t like me, or if someone is moody.  The problem with that is that I married the moodiest man on the planet.

My self-worth depends on the status of my relationships.  That is a wow kind of sentence.  It is something that I know is ridiculous.  And I don’t actually think that.  But if I am being honest – I really do live my life that way!  Even though I try really hard NOT to do that.

I have to work on that.


4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Judi
    Mar 13, 2012 @ 09:53:42

    Totally!! Exactly!! ME TOO!!


  2. Jill
    Mar 13, 2012 @ 11:22:37

    Um, no you didn’t I did (married the moodiest person on earth) Hey- chin up- You are working on it and that’s the great part. For the record I think your process of self discovery is nothing short of Amazing. You are sensitive and that makes you empathetic and caring- BIG pluses in my book. :)


  3. Zoe
    Mar 14, 2012 @ 09:18:16

    Glad you guys can relate :) And Thanks Jill!


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This blog is my personal journal. I am trying hard to save my marriage. No, I am trying to build a great marriage. In case you haven't heard, marriage is HARD!
I am fighting back against anxiety & panic attacks. This is year 5 of this adventure. I am also codependent. I am an ACOA. Fun, Fun. I am trying hard to become a better me.
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