Back to The Real World

We are back from vacation.  Feeling rested and renewed.  THANK YOU LORD!

(Too bad we all brought colds home with us! )

Not fun to be back into the routine already, but it is what it is and I plan to do better!  I am determined to manage my time better, get more sleep, exercise more, eat better, etc.

Funny how going on vacation kind of has the same effect as a new year.  You have  a new perspective, you re-assess your goals and feel like you are making a fresh start :)

Below is a link to an interesting infographic I came across this morning while catching up on my email.  It’s called “How Social Media Distracts You at Work”.  The problem is that part of my job involves managing social media accounts for clients.  This becomes a problem because then my own accounts are on my screen also.  (Facebook, twitter, pinterest, linked in, digg, etc!) And yes it is way too easy to get distracted by that!

I’ve read before about planning your social media times, like you check it 3 times/day or something.  And you set the times.  Or you plan to check it only after project X has been completed.  I definitely need to do something like this and be more productive!


Just a Weird Story about Helping Others

Sunday morning:

This weekend I tried to buy a used laptop.  I answered a for sale ad and then emailed back & forth with the lady all weekend – trying to meet with her so I could see it.   She had many excuses and the timing was always wrong.  I had given her my phone number but she wouldn’t call me and ignored my requests for hers.  It would have been so much simpler than the way we were communicating.

Her car broke down, her kids were sleeping, she has no stroller, her boyfriend doesn’t get off work until 5… these were just a few of the reasons she kept changing the time we were supposed to meet.  We were going to meet at a shopping center near her home.

Finally in one of the emails she said that she suffers from anxiety and doesn’t go anywhere alone.  I think perhaps she doesn’t like talking to strangers on the phone either.  It made more sense then.  This was a major stressor for her.  And she was trying to figure out how to meet with me – but not do it alone I guess.  I feel for her.  It made me grateful for how far I’ve come – fighting back against anxiety / panic attacks.

We still have not figured out a time and I’m ready to just tell her to forget it.  At the same time I want to push her to do this – even though it is uncomfortable for her.  I don’t even know her.  I did not say any of this to her of course.  And it’s really none of my business.  But as a fellow anxiety sufferer I want to help her!  I want to talk to her about it.  I want her to get better.

In the last email she asked if I could just come to her house instead of meeting her at the shopping center.  She sounded so frustrated.  I feel weird about doing that.  Especially when she gave me the address and sorry but it is not a great section of town, which made me wonder if the laptop was really what she described.  But she said her dad gave it to her and she was going to go back to school but isn’t now because she is pregnant.  Anyway, I am not going there myself.  Perhaps hubby will go with me later.  Perhaps he will have a fit that I even want to buy the thing and refuse.  Maybe he’ll be grumpy when he gets home.  Maybe not.  Who knows.

Sunday Evening Update:

Hubby went with me to check out the laptop.  The whole situation just got weirder.  When we knocked on the door, there was a bunch of whispering before they finally opened it.  She had her very little girl open the door while she hid behind it – just quickly peeking her head out a few times.  We went in, the boyfriend was sitting on the couch watching TV, all decked out in black and wearing those weird earrings that stretch the earlobes all out in the grossest way ever.

She looked like she had been crying.  She quietly said that she really didn’t want to sell the laptop anymore – she really wanted to keep it.  She felt bad that we wasted gas money to drive there and she looked terrified that we would be mad. We weren’t mad.  Surprised and confused, yes.  We handed it back to her and said that was ok, don’t worry about it.  She talked in circles – her daughter has autism and their bills are so high, the kids need clothes and the money from the laptop was to buy them clothes, she can’t stand to part with the laptop and really needs to keep it. …

Hubby and I made a pretty quick exit.  It was very awkward.  We got to the car and hubby made a joke about how he thought HE got himself into some weird situations but I had him beat with this one.  If he would not have come with me, I would not have gone in.  Seriously, I would have turned the car around and drove right back home.  It was a scary looking place.  I feel for her!  I think she must have some mental issues.  We think maybe the boyfriend was fighting with her about selling it or something.  He never even acknowledged our presence in the apartment and we were about 5 feet from him.

When we got home there was already another email from her apologizing again.  And once again she contradicted herself – in the same paragraph she said she’s sorry and said again why she had to keep it and then the last sentence said “If you are still interested, I promise you won’t leave empty-handed this time.”   WHAT?

I just replied and told her that if she ever decided FOR SURE that she wanted to sell it she should let me know.  I don’t want it at all at this point.  The whole situation was just way weird and I’m not sure what to make of it.  After we left I told hubby I felt like I should have just given her the money anyway.  They are obviously struggling.  I was surprised that hubby did not disagree.

At Christmas I usually send an anonymous gift card for a grocery store or somewhere to someone in need.  When I was a Girl Scout leader, it was easy to see who needed help.  I didn’t do that this past year – I guess because no one popped up on my radar.  Now, I feel like I was supposed to meet her.  Maybe I can help her?  She said she has anxiety and that struck a chord with me.  (That maybe explains her hiding behind the door?)

Hubby is more pessimistic – about everything really – he doesn’t want me to send her $ – he says the creepy boyfriend will just take it.  So I am going to buy a grocery gift card or 2 and send them her way occasionally.  Anonymously of course.  And maybe a Walmart GC.  Not big amounts.  I don’t have big amounts.  The way I look at it – the next time you are at Walmart, before you checkout  – take a look in your cart – what do you really not need?  You know there will be extra stuff in there.  Put it back and buy a gift card instead.  Send it on it’s way – it will make someone’s day.  (Hey I rhymed! lol)

My point:  I’m glad I met her.  I feel like God had a purpose for that.  Perhaps it is helping her buy some groceries.  Or perhaps there is something I can say – or write in an email that will make a difference in her life and help her deal with the anxiety.  Perhaps simply praying for her will help her.  I don’t know but it all keeps replaying in my mind.  And it shook hubby up a bit too.  It makes you remember to be grateful for everything you have.  We have our own home.  My family is healthy.  My hubby is not creepy :)  I am very blessed.


Peace & Quiet

Today is one of those rare days that happens once every month or so.  Hubby is at an auction, kids are all at school and I have the house to myself.

Ahhhh.  Peace & Quiet  :)

I had an appointment scheduled with the guidance counselor to discuss Kid1’s classes for next year.  Apparently this is something you do before 9th grade.  The appointment was at 10am.  I even took my ativan already so I’d be prepared.

Guess what?!  I just called and changed it.  And not because I’m all anxious about it either! I am a little anxious (teacher conference panic attack flashback!)  – but that is not why.  I was sitting on the porch, sipping my one cup of coffee for the day, enjoying the sunshine and decided I was going to take a time out for me!  Yep, just for me.

SO I called the school and rescheduled it for tomorrow afternoon.  It’s very strange how very much this makes me smile!  lol

I do have a few must-do’s on my work schedule – so I plan to go get those done as quickly as possible, then have a nice long shower, and then maybe even sit on the porch and read a book on my new kindle.  Sounds like an awesome plan to me.

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Thank you for the coffee.

“Thank you for the coffee.”

“You’re welcome.

Simple.  Ordinary.
Insignificant to many.

Oh so awesome to me!

This happened a few days ago and I keep replaying it in my head.  That’s how rare and wonderful this is!

I made coffee in the afternoon when I heard him waking up.  I assumed he’d want some.  I have done this a million times.







My internet was down.

The internet was down this morning I loved it!

Baby sleeping (my adorable nephew).


Cleaned screens on computer, ipod, etc

Cleaned out my box of bill receipts -began too anyway.

Scrubbed 2 pairs of kids shoes.

Planned what we are having for supper – instead of fretting about it about an hour before everyone is hungry.

Got through about half of one pile on my desk.

Emptied garbage cans.

Found a place to hide Christmas gifts this year and moved the various shipping boxes from under my desk to an unused hamper in my closet!

Played with baby!

Sewed a hole in one of kid3’s jeans.

Paid a bill – this is usually late because it is one of only 2 that I still have to write a check and send in the mail.  (All others are autopay  – I love autopay!)

The internet needs to go out more often!

An Attitude of Gratitude

“An attitude of gratitude shows a lot about the character of a person.”
Joyce Meyer

Seems fitting for the holiday.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Whispered Between Women – 90 Days, 90 Joys

One of my favorite blogs is Whispered Between Women.

She is doing a 90 days, 90 Joys project.

I love reading it.  I think we all need a little more joy in our lives, don’t you?

Things That Make Me Smile

Just a little fun today.

Flickr Mosaics – I see these on blogs a lot.  I was up too late again last night and did this when I should have been sleeping.   Here is a flickr mosaic of things that make me smile.  I did not follow the directions.  I started and then I was annoyed by the questions and the images that came up for those search results.  So I just searched for topics that make me happy and are important to me.  Like chocolate, peanut butter, books, love, hiking in the woods, family beach trips, happy kids, etc…

Things That Make Me Smile

1> Love. 2>Tulips from my flower beds.3>My comfy bed.4>Beach vacations with the family.5>Chocolate & peanut butter6>Lots of Books.7>My Marriage.8>Family (that is a family tree).9>Hiking in the woods.10>Family.11>Happy kids being kids.12>Love taking pictures!


Here are the real directions:

Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr search, using only the first page, choose your favorite image, copy and paste each of the URL’s into the mosaic maker (3 columns, 4 rows).

1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you attend?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. What is your job?
6. Favorite Drink?
7. Dream Vacation?
8. Favorite Dessert?
9.  What do you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11.One word to describe you?
12. Your Flickr Name?

Happy, Healthy, Safe & Faithful

Dear Lord,

Please keep my hubby







I have been praying that prayer for years when he leaves for work.   After each of those above I pray more, adding details for each.  For example, he fell on the ice yesterday.  He fell hard.  So after I say Healthy – I prayed that the hip that has been hurting since then will heal soon and not be so sore.  Safety is a big issue at his job – it is dangerous and depending what he is working on at at the moment, there is always a lot to say about that.  And safety is needed on these icy roads lately too!  Faithful not just to me, but to keep his focus on his family.

The kids know this prayer and have said it with me.  They used to love to do this – especially when they were younger.  Although I pray the faithful part silently, not out loud with them.  They know mommy prays for daddy and that makes me happy.  I also pray for them when they leave for school in the morning.  My daughter told me one time that she looked out the bus window and could see me in the window praying for her :)

I thought about this today because I realized I hadn’t been doing it anymore.  It  made me sad.  I have said this prayer for him for probably 16 years now.  I started it soon after we were married.   So I prayed for him tonight as he left for work.  And wow did I have a lot to say about each of those categories!

THANK YOU LORD for the power of prayer!

Happy Hubby Moment #2

He went to physical therapy this morning.  This makes the Happy Hubby Moment list because the only reason he went is because I wanted him to.  He is against it and thinks it is stupid.  So even tho there was a fight to get him there, He went.  I’m gonna even say he went for me.  (Or at least to shut me up)  Either way,  I wanted him to go and he went.  I am grateful for that.  Smile :)

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