What a week!
(And it's only Wednesday???)
Monday evening hubby totally ticked me off. I told him so. And then as usual, he got ticked at me for being ticked at him. I bit my tongue (mostly) Monday night because the kiddos were home. Tuesday morning after they all left for school we had a big “discussion” about it. It wasn’t really a fight I guess. There were words, there was some yelling and some crying. There were some more words and maybe even some solutions. I hope to have time to babble more about this later!
Monday night/Tuesday morning were stressful. I was on edge and feeling really out of sorts. I had PMS last week, my period this week. My period week is usually better for me in terms of hormones, emotions etc but I feel like my skin is crawling so that theory isn’t accurate this month.
Then today I read a post on Roots To Blossom. She is an amazing lady – she has been through hell and back and is such an inspiration! I was reading her story about depression & the birth of her first child and got so overwhelmed just reading it. Seriously I had to put my head down and try to stop the spinning – I thought I was going to pass out. I was already feeling all out of sorts and the story was intense and I guess it just got me. I was sitting here, leaning down with my head between my knees thinking that I can’t even read it without losing it – this woman lived it!
Then I really messed up at work. Ugh. I hate to admit it but I did. The client was very angry and threatening to cancel his account with me. I’m getting more & more clients and it’s getting to be too much for one person to handle. Of course I don’t want to out-source it but I think I’m going to have to. This screw up was just because an important task got lost on my huge task list on my calendar.
I felt sick to my stomach as soon as I realized what I had done. And I knew I had to tell the client. He is not a very forgiving man so I knew that was going to completely suck. I had to get away from it. I went out and walked around the snowy yard for a while, talking to myself. lol Mostly in my head but occasionally out loud. I’m sure the neighbors think I’m crazy. I felt light headed and like I couldn’t get my breath.
Finally I came in and dealt with the problem. I seriously wondered if I could get through that call without throwing up! He was mad. He was not nice. He threatened to pull his business. I calmly explained, apologized, and offered a solution. When we hung up he was still angry and said he would contact me tomorrow to transfer his account to another company. Fast forward a few hours. He sent a calm email saying he wasn’t going to fire me after all. Yippee.
The thing is that I was feeling on edge and panicky before any of these things even happened. So then the things I can usually handle pretty much put me over the edge. Ugh.
I have a few more marketing reports I need to finish up before I can have some wine. Really looking forward to it tonight though!
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